lucky Jason 69's blog: "And it all falls down!"

I am emotionally destroyed! I've pulled every string given! There's no way to quit, but there's no motivation to keep livin.

You don't see the real me cause it's hidden deep. The real me is crying yet the tears seldom seep.

I've done so much I'm not proud of, but there's nothing I can take back! So I distance myself from others building an emotional lack.

I know I can get through this if I run away and hide. Shutting everyone off from this turmoil inside.

I want to feel good again, better about myself! Failure after failure are the only trophies on my shelf.

I've got a good job but the money isn't enough. I've got a great wife but living with me is tough.

I don't want to lose everything I have! But the distance keeps growing and I don't see a way back.

I know she can't love me like when we first met. Would things be better....if I just left?