every night i sleep and wonder where are you now i want to step out of my house run to you hold you in my arms i look up at night look at the fan saying this is not my home this is not where my heart is its still in Edison its still where i grew up its still where i use to live as long as i am not in edison i am sad when i am in edison i feel like you are with me in my arms i feel like your still alive edison where i meet my 1st bf 1st kiss 1st learn how to walk 1st every thing why cant i have edison back and being in love with my hubby and not being happy hurt me and him so now we are getting divourse and shit but i dream of every one i miss every one i have lost or moved away from if i could get my life back i would but i have to grin bare it and move on now i just want to be held at night dont matter who you are i just want some one to hold me and say every one that pass away is ok and tomorrow will be better but i cant see it that way at all i know i wake up i never see my mom again and i cant talk about her with any one cuz if i say her name i get yelled at i have to hid her pic from my step mom i just want her back that all i want is is every thing back to norm i want my family not fighting in every way
