Well, Adam and I kinda broke up. But, we got back together. I haven't been able to blog about it, because, well, I haven't been home. And when I have been home I've been with the girls and playing with them.... SO i haven't had time...
So, here's what happened. We had plans to hang out, him me and the girls. His cousin was coming into town. HE KNEW ahead of time him cousin was coming to town and said he didn't wanna go hang out. Well, as he got off work, his cousin called, and he decided to ditch hanging out with me and the girls, and then go to hooters with his cousin. I was pissed. Yeah, of course, I told him to just go... cuz, well, I'm like that. I understood he wanted to see his cousin, but, he KNEW he was coming to town and had no right to just DITCH our plans... and it made lexi cry, cuz lexi wanted to see him.... Up until this point in my life, I've never brought the girls into any relationship I've had... Too much bullshit and drama with dennis, and just SHIT. Well, Dennis and I have been split up for quite some time now, and we're actually getting along, OK considering all... but, still... the point here, is adam pissed me off...
Well, he doesn't have kids... he doesn't really KNOW what it's like... but, he understands he hurt their feelings, and he feels bad... we talked it all out, and god, there are other problems too... he doesn't wanna talk to me about stuff, and he, gets pissy with me over stupid things.... and, OMFG, when he DRINKS, he's an asshole...
But, we sat and talked about everything... And, I love him.... so so much... and he loves me, and he adores the girls... and, he means the world to me... Honestly, all people have problems in their relationships... and so far, nothing he has done has really been THAT bad... he's getting used to being with me, and I know this hasn't been easy for him... god knows, I love him. I don't want to lose him. I mean, shit, Chastine and I were just talking the other night, and if right now he were to ask me to marry him, i would... i mean, i love him that much.... esp considering, i really dont WANT to ever get married again, esp not after the bullshit I went through with dennis.... but i am so in lve with him. I've never felt this way about anyone... I'm happy with him... he makes me smile just thinking about him... I never want to leave his side... he is amazing... and, i dunno... i just never thought i could be in a realtionship in which I was this happy...
I need to get ready for work... i guess i'll blog more later...
