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Today I am doing something that has never been done - for me that is.
We are just off to look at a dog with the view to bringing it home. I am just trying to think what questions need asking and quite frankly cannot. It does not bother me which is maybe a little fool hardy if, say, he is not house trained. We will see.
This all began with a housewarming party in Liverpool where we met a Tibetan terrier called Diesal who was adorable. As our friends were going on holiday they were looking at kennels but were devastated to see how little space Diesal would have - about a dining room table sized cage. During a conversation about logistics, we live half way across the country, they live on the coast but we were told that they could transport Diesal to us. I said it would be no problem and we had him for three weeks. This may not seem strange but I have never owned a dog before and not handled them much either.
So this was another learning curve but we coped and I would never have offered prior to surgery. Somehow it just did not matter that the carpet was getting slightly dirty and the house was getting cluttered with toys. It was enjoyable albeit stressful but we calmed a young and boisterous dog down much to the joy of our friends.
We missed him and have decided to get one ourselves. All this is by the by but it shows just how surgery has changed me. The other thing is that I have not had a seizure in two years and I am again decreasing my medication. I have not had any glitches either and those that did occur were stopped by means of making my brain use another neural pathway for the impulse to travel down, namely the one that takes me into the state of meditation. The grass is growing over the old pathway that the impulses travelled which causes the seizures and now I hope the gate can be closed on that chapter of my life - if you can call 43 years a chapter.
There seems little that bothers me anymore and my concentration is intermittent. I can still write a paragraph without losing track of what I first said in the paragraph. However, forgetting why i have gone from A to B can be a nuisance at times. It has to be said that age related memory loss could be the cause of this.
My mother died in December, the funeral was in January when the snow was thick and travelling was hit and miss. It was the first time I had met relatives in 20 years and that worried me but when the meetings happened it was OK. At least I held my own so what I thought was stressful it turned out was not.
On occasions I forget my evening medication without ill-effect which is lucky due to this happening when we travel long haul. Possibly this does not mean much but to go 24 hours without medication has not as yet cause problems. Reduction though is being done at 50 mg over a period of one month by missing one dose every other day. Eventually I hope after another month to omit that and dosage will then be 200mg AM and 200mg PM. It is at present 200/250mg am/pm. My neurologist is not aware of this but after our visit in July I am hoping he will write a prescription for 100mg tablets so I can further reduce the doses with the view of completely withdrawing them from my life. This will give me freedom to do things at short notice without having to worry about having the medication on hand.
