Well I am about to find out on the 27th of this month for myself. I never thought I would get past 21, but yet I still find myself knocking about the planet with a couple of mad plans. Are you supposed to get more well behaved as you get older as I think the reverse is happening to me or is that part of growing old disgracefully.
I think its because I didnt have kids that I didnt have to have the responsibilities that go with them. What I have noticed, though is that women who remain childless get frowned upon by society, I dunno about you but I valued me freedom too much to be tied to a guy through the life of a child.
It may have something to do with being the product of a single parent and finding out how hard it was for my mother, being a single parent in the sixties and things that happened to her, or maybe it was the fact that i spent the ages of 14 in assessment centres and childrens homes and saw all the unwanted kids there, or being homeless myself for over 8 years and the damage that was done.
So anyway the big 40 approaches and I am starting to feel as if I am losing my marbles but the feeling of throwing caution to the wind is a kind of good one. I actually feel a lot better and look a lot better than I was younger, I really did look like a gobshite as I found some old pictures the other day, what a scary looking fucker I was then. I think I got stuck at a mental age of 15.
