My soul is screaming
For the one in my heart
Why am I dreaming
For what we can never start?
We had our chance
We were both too scared
To try this dance
With our souls bared.
I need you more
Than I can admit
I'm not so sure
I can take this shit.
The moment we kissed
I knew in was in too deep
It will be on that list
I replay while I sleep.
I've loved you twice
And now you know.
But with your wife
You cannot let it show.
Maybe you love me
I cannot be certain.
Call it serendipity
As to why I never win.
I'm a horrible girl
But I never let you see
I've hidden my world
Hoping you could love me.
But I'm broken and battered
And you deserve so much more
Than a girl who is tattered
No better than a whore.
You will never know
How bad it hurts
Walking away so slow
And crying in spurts.
You will find a better love
Much stronger than me
Someone to shove
Me from your memory.
I wish I was enough
To be all that you need.
Though it's been rough
You will succeed.
A better life without me
And all that you desire.
You can be happy
Without my fire.
You have your own
To keep you warm.
Don't write or phone
It'll only cause you harm.
I love you, dear boy,
More than you knew
Try to find some joy
With one who deserves you.
