One
Crimson drop of blood
Followed by another.
Two tears slide slowly
Down my face.
My mouth trembles
As
I take shallow breaths.
Regret
Remorse
Disgust
Dirty
All these, I feel in a hint of a second.
My life flashes before my eyes.
My mother, my wonderful, beautiful, unknowing, loving
Mother.
My father, my strong, caring, worshiping father.
But then
He was too strong,
Too caring.
His shadow sneaking into my room at night,
A thief in the dark,
Stealing my innocence.
His hands all over my body,
Two five fingered monsters slithering everywhere.
He says he loves me,
It’s just our secret.
No one will know; no one will care.
I care,
I know.
I keep my silence,
I take the abuse,
I plan my last defiance.
A day alone,
Quiet,
Peaceful,
Perfect.
My body on the floor,
My wrists slit,
My eyes lifeless.
I love you daddy,
For what you used to be,
For what you were.
My last defiance,
My suicide.
I'm Free.
