Lost's blog: "Crazy"

So I decided today that my patients come into the office to torture me. They all get together over coffee in the morning and discuss which certifiabley insane people will come to see me on which day. I believe that the conversation goes something like: Patient 1: So, you have an appointment today? Patient 2: Yes. I have determined that the girl up there has had an easy week, so today I am going to go in and make her think that she is crazy.......ha ha ha Patient 3: I have an appointment too, I think I will yell at her and tell her that she is the reason for all of my problems in life. What about you? Patient 1: I am going to cancel and show up anyway and say that I didn't cancel, then get irate and insanly beligerent, then when someone else walks in pretend that I don't know what the hell she is talking about. I think this week we can break her..... While all this is going on I sit completely oblivious to the chaos that is about to slam into me. I am evidently the root of everyone's problems...forget about blaming your parents, drugs or alchohol, blame the finance girl at the dentist's office, while your at it tell her it is her fault you didn't brush your teeth or floss.

Thank you to everyone for cheering me up about my breakdown....crazy may not be a good color for me. I am feeling a little less insane right now, but I don't know how long that is going to last. Still creating massive problems for myself...wow am I fantastic at that!!! Do you ever get sick of people taking credit for your hard work and good ideas and passing off their failures to you as your mistakes and shortcomings??? Well welcome to my perky planet...the only thing that makes me feel better about this is when that "thief of glory" gets called out and exposed in front of everyone. Sick isn't it...that I take pleasure in shaming someone? Went to Dallas this past weekend, scoping out a new home base, wish me luck, I need to get out of the "Black Hole of Hope" before it sucks me dry...wait.....it may have already happened.

Do you ever feel as though you are the only sane person and everyone else is crazy or vice versa....I hit that point last week and now I have moved into complete insanity....I hate where I live, I hate my job and I have created so many problems for myself, I do not think I can escape them. I don't know if it is the intent of everyone around me to make me feel as though I have lost it or if I really have. Anyone want to join me in my craziness??