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today is the day that i sit in wonder of what is going on these days? i am in the dark about whats going on in my life right now that it is confusing and different to me. i am lost and don't know really how to get back to the light. all i know is i don't want any more games played with my heart or mind. i can not take any more i have dealt with enough as it is in my life. yes i know that shit happens and it happens for a reason but hey why can't the one thing that has gone right in my life stay that way for once. i am going to stay in this dark place for now until she realizes that she brings the light into my days and the moon into my nights. i will love no one else if she leaves and i will stay in this dark yet broken night. i am going to have to realize one day that i am not what she really wants or that it is me and no one else. i can not keep going on living wondering day by day if it were going to be my last with her. i know you guys and girls are tired of hearing this from me but this is the only way i can release what is in my head without making her feel bad or that i am pushing her or trying to trap her in anything. cause i am so far from that but what do i do when i can't seem to figure out if its me she really wants or just the thought of me. i would and have treated her like a queen. showing her that she is more than nothing and that she is worth everything to me. i am willing to get my heart wripped out of my chest and letting it get stomped on over and over for just another day with her.
