suicide

is this life worth living if all i get is pain?

for me things are getting to the point that i just want to cut and hurt myself. i am feeling depressed and out of sorts. i know things are not worth doing stupid shit like hurting or cutting myself let alone suicide. but the way my mind is set now it might be better for everyone and myself to just disappear. to never show my face again it would probably be better to be six feet under the ground. i want so hard to be with my amazing girlfriend and her daughter and have kids with her and spend the rest of my life with her. i know nothing is worth killing yoursaelf over but if i died today i wouldnt have to worry about the pain and no one would even miss me for the most part just when they want to use me for something. oh well maybe tomorrow will bring better light hopefully. if not there is nothing other than doing the damn deed.hope people that read this dont worry but if you dont hear from me in a few days you might need to wonder.....have a good night!!