Spunky Monkeythe broken pieces of the he...'s blog: "confused"

my life fell apart today...my world came crashin down....my heart is ripped to shreds on the floor...all becuz of the man that i love...he was everything to me...but i wasnt everything to him....he says he loves me but i dont quite believe that nemore....i was willin to do w/e i could to keep him...but it wasnt enough...hes gone now and he wants nothing to do with me....he cut me out of his life....he wants a life w/o me....and i wish i could stop cryin but i cant...i loved him with my hole heart...but it wasnt enough...i couldnt be who he wanted me to be...i tried to be perfect for him but i couldnt....i still love him and i want to be with him but he refuses....he said he never wanted to do this but he had to...well i call bullshit on that....i was gonna marry this guy...but not nemore....becuz of him my heart is trying to stay alive but idk how much longer it can fight....i wish i could be 6ft under so i wouldnt have to deal with this pain...i wish i could turn back time so i didnt have to meet him...so i didnt have to be sitting alone in my room crying with a broken heart....damn u psyko....how could u do this to me...i thought u loved me!!!

(chorus) > > > > > > > everytime i see ur smiling face > > > > > > > i fly up to the sky > > > > > > > but everytime i cry > > > > > > > i die a little > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 1) > > > > > > > i live to see ur smiling face > > > > > > > the soft touch you give > > > > > > > passion in your kiss > > > > > > > the love in ur heart > > > > > > > makes me all go weak in the knees > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 2) > > > > > > > so much time has gone by > > > > > > > i hate myself for letting you go > > > > > > > it was probably the best thing to do > > > > > > > but it still kills me in the end > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (bridge) > > > > > > > i still need you here with me > > > > > > > i still love you with every piece of my heart > > > > > > > i love you til the very end > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 3) > > > > > > > i have cried so many nights > > > > > > > thinking of your words > > > > > > > and i die everytime > > > > > > > i wish it didnt happen > > > > > > > i wish i could go back > > > > > > > but theres just no way > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus)

i thought u loved me but maybe it was all just a lie u want time to urself u say but yet you hang with other ppl u say mean things to me things to make me cry u say want to be with me but ur actions say otherwise you make me feel worthless guilty like everythings my fault that its my fault for ur actions i dont think theres nething i can do to make u happy i dont meet up to ur standards you seem to hate me for what i am which u say im emo if u hate emos so much why u still with me? i wish u could open ur eyes and see that ill never be perfect ill never be good enough for u will i?? ive tried and tried but it was never enough well im done trying to make u happy cuz apparently its not working so now its up to u are u willing to accept me for who i am? if not then this is goodbye

im confused on what he wants!