Spunky Monkeythe broken pieces of the he...'s blog: "a moment"

i finally came around but u were no where to be found im here but where are you? i search high and low and all around no where to be found where did you go? im here waiting while on the inside im aching the heart screams your name this aint a game im finally here waiting on you ready to pursue ready to take that chance to have that life we could share but your elsewhere was i too late? did i miss my chance? did i luck out on romance? tell me im not to late

thinking back on the times we had what was i thinking i was a fool to ever believe you your words mean nothing to me now im not gonna keep the memories we shared ill throw them away like u threw away my heart the butterflies i once had have now died they no longer linger inside of me im gonna find my own piece of mind im looking to the future and your not in it i aint gonna wish for time to rewind i dont regret the things i said i have my closure i aint gonna miss you i dont miss my mistakes i dont miss my heartaches i dont miss you ill be fine without you i dont need your protection i dont need your advice and most of all i dont need you

verse 1 i walk down these empty streets trying to find myself so many wrong turns that leave me in the dark the only sound i hear is my own heartbeat chorus i gaze upon the sky watching the stars shine bright they found their purpose in life so why cant i? verse 2 i feel like im being left behind everyone is moving ahead i have my own rare design that i have yet to find i gaze upon the sky watching the stars shine bright they found their purpose in life so why cant i? verse 3 im not gonna give up im gonna give it another try someday itll be my time to shine and no i aint gonna say goodbye bridge i will find myself i wont stay hidden on a shelf my time will come ill have my freedom i wont keep myself as a prisoner anymore ill rise to the top and not another teardrop

i used to think you were the best but now i think ur the worst so many memories filled with pain it drove me to be insane my heart cant take it anymore how could i have been so foolish to think you really loved me all i was to u was a whore someone you could use and abuse u no longer have power over me u can no longer can tear me down ill no longer frown ill go on and smile will you ever cross my mind? maybe someday down the road when i listen to the wind ill look back and cry but ill pick myself back up and wonder why why i fell in love with you

u took my heart and rippd it away you have a blackheart but to my dismay i actually loved you you put me down called me so many names caused me to have a breakdown you played your game and i was only the pawn so many tears have fallen i cant believe i can still cry u had me in a dungeon but i cant deny that i still love you the pain may linger but ill go on living and my heart may be bitter im gonna quit crying all you are now is just a memory

here i lie in my bed just staring out the window watching the clouds roll on by lost in a bittersweet memory its all i have got to get me through the nights when you are not near i dream a fantastic dream things no one could understand except you and me to come back to reality and to find your not here saddens my heart so ill continue to dream til the day i see you again

i know that im awake but yet the touch of a single object does no justice i am numb numb to the touch my head is still but yet i can not concentrate sitting alone in a cold, dark room seems like the place to be i can see light but i just cannot seem to reach outside there is sunlight and bright blue skies if only i could reach but until then ill sit here til the earth turns dark and grey

"When You Look Me In The Eyes" If the heart is always searching, Can you ever find a home? I've been looking for that someone, I'll never make it on my own Dreams can't take the place of loving you, There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true. When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes. How long will I be waiting, To be with you again Gonna tell you that I love you, In the best way that I can. I can't take a day without you here, You're the light that makes my darkness disappear. When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes. More and more, I start to realize, I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head up high, And it's all because you're by my side. When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When I hold you in my arms, I know that it's forever. I just gotta let you know, I never wanna let you go. When you look me in the eyes. And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes. Oh

i never knew that one night of passion could lead up to this i can feel you run through my body my heart beats faster as the blood rushes through me like an uncontrolled waterfall to feel your skin caress my skin sends a shiver down my back your kiss upon my lips makes me lose sudden control one look in your eyes the world seems to stop and everything seems to freeze in time the warmth of your body seems so comforting that nothing could possibly go wrong and when it does your there to make it right never felt love like this before didnt think it could ever exist but you showed me otherwise to you ill forever be true to you ill forever love

thank u psyko...i love u so much baby



if there was another path I would surely find it but without you I'm only standing in my own way i need you you are the light that guides me through the dark you are the blood that runs through my veins you are the one that I gave my heart to and if I don't have you I don't have my life I love you in so many ways none of what I say can emphasize how I feel about you if I only had one day to live and could be with anyone it would be only you that I'd want to spend the day