lookiing deep within myself,
staring deep in my own existance,
crying inside and showing no tears.
fearing rejection and torment,
standing strong against winds of destruction,
willing myself to move on.
my sight is blocked by own darkend heart,
missing you and not knowing it,
never being missed by you,
lost and confused to hard to fix,
sitting here wondering how,
wondering where i go from here.
seeking peace and comfort,
needing more then friendship,
which is all they ask for from me.
