Confused
Im lying here wondering why I should even care.
I wonder if he thinks I shouldnt be able to have a voice.
But you see thats not the reason I moved here.
It was because I was madly in love and because it was my choice.
I was happy when I came to this place, as the days go by Im still
in love but Im still quiet unsure I understand.
Im confused about what or whom Im suppose to be.
I just want to be able to please my man.
Deep down I still want to be able to please my man.
I thought we talked about any and everything that made sense.
I truly miss the man I fell in love with on the phone.
Maybe it is me and that in reality I really am just dense.
Cuz i cant come to terms that Im so far away from home.
I feel like Im under pressure all the time.
Feeling like I have to walk on eggshells, so he doesnt get mad.
So i usually turn my feelings an desires to paper and rhyme.
Mostly Im very happy but occassionally I feel sad.
I dont have anything to offer or give.
All i can do is love and help out around the house.
As you know in reality its not enough for us to live.
Although, sometimes I feel like crawling in a hole like a mouse.
Sometimes I ask myself "Do I really belong?"
"Am I good enough for this relationship so it will last?"
Im weaking Im no longer as strong
I just dont want to ruin this one like all the others int he past.
He is very extra ordinary & special to me.
I have never loved anyone so much,
I just want to be able to be me.
I even feel the love in his touch.
As my love for him in my heart and soul grows, Please help me understand how to please my man!
copyright2006 Roberta Jean Zupkie 8-26-04
