You walk away feeling left out of my life
Yet when I look at you all I see are closed doors
Never once did you try to see beyond the wall I built
Never once did you attempt to cross the gap building between us
You said you loved me and in my heart I believed you
The emotional pain is neverending to this day
Looking at you I see my past, present and future
The child between us means I will never truly be free of you
Each comment you make brings back the heartache
It tugs at the strings that surround my heart
No amount of work or play can ever erase the memories
I try to bury them deeper inside only to have them surface when least expected
I walked away over twelve years ago from from you
And yet each time I see the pain is renewed
Is what I feel pity and guilt or are there feelings still there
I won't let myself be blindsided by you again
The lies, the sneaking, the humiliation was more than I should stand
The doors are now closed in my soul and brain but my heart still refuses to close all the way
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