Every year I must give thanks to the Lord for his many blessings through the year..Sometimes, I think it's only by the grace of God that I get through the holiday season..Everyone that knows me well realizes the holidays are a difficult time of the year for me with no family other than my children and the loss of Ron back in 2006 but this year I am holding together quite well..I have gotten little/ no help during this time from my kids' father to whom I had to beg for money for the boys' Christmas...I beg for nothing but for my children, there is nothing I wouldn't do...I don't know why I believe all his false promises..it's gotten to the point where my children don't even want him here for Christmas- that is sad...I am blessed to have such a bond with my boys- I know this will be a gift forever for me..I got money out of my ex for Christmas-5 days before Christmas to buy my children gifts...five days..yes, you heard me right..he wanted them to wait til after Christmas when things are cheaper..say what?? oh no way..Mommy had to step in...I am going tonite to get all I need to make their Christmas a wonderful one...My youngest son, Christopher's school gave us many clothes and enough toys that I don't even have to buy for Chris lol but I will..he has a dozen things under the tree now..Mommy is all smiles..The Lord provides...I am in good spirits today..My oldest son, Robert, was in tears and said to me recently "what do YOU want for Christmas"? And all I could think to reply was "your happiness"...deep down inside all I want for Christmas is someone to love me, cherish me for the good woman that I know that I am..perhaps next year..perhaps not..whatever comes my way I know God will provide me with strength to endure..Merry Christmas my friends!