You have many questions. Though the process has altered your consciousness, you remain irrevocably human.
Ergo, some of my answers you will understand and some you will not.
Concordantly, while your first question may be the most pertinent...
You may or may not realize it is also the most irrelevant.
Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation...
You are the eventuality of an anomaly, which despite my sincerest efforts, I've been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision.
While it remains a burden assiduously avoided, it is unexpected and thus not beyond a measure of control...
Which has led you, inexorably, here.
I count from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next.
As you are undoubtedly gathering, the anomaly is systemic, creating fluctuations in even the most simplistic equations.
Choice. The problem is choice.
A triumph equaled only by it's monumental failure.
The inevitability of its doom is apparent now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human.
I have come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind.
Or perhaps, a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection.
While this answer functioned, it was fundamentally flawed, thus creating an otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly, that if left unchecked would constitute an escalating probability of disaster...
It's every living inhabitant terminated...
It's entire existence eradicated.
Denial is the most predictable of all human responses.
Most people, by design, based on a similar prediction a contingent affirmation that was meant to create a profound attachment to the rest of the human race, facilitating your reason for living.
Which brings us at last to the moment of truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed and the anomaly revealed as both beginning and end.
As you adequately put, the problem is choice.
But we already know what you are going to choose, don't we?
Already I can see the chain reaction, the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason.
An emotion that is already blinding you from the simple and obvious truth.
Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.
