So I don't know about you guys, but I'm wondering if there is some unknown force out there that likes to play with me. Have you ever been really into someone, but because you are so scared of being hurt you act like you do not care either way. Then they leave....and you are okay with it, but then they decide to come waltzing back into your life, like nothing's ever changed. What is that about? Do they honestly think that we are gonna pick up where we left off? I wish they would just stay away, you know? I deleted you out of my life for a reason. So go.
And what about online dating? Does that ever work? You see it all the time, but do you know anyone who actually comes out happy about it?
I wish I knew what was going on but I don't. And for those of you who know me, you know how much I hate that. I want it to be the way I envision it, but scared to take the chance. Scared to open up again. Scared to get hurt again.
So someone tell me why I'm falling and I don't know why. Tell me more than God is the only one who can help me. More than I will keep you in my prayers. Why is it so damn hard for anyone to just say what is on there mind instead of hiding behind nice words and smiles? Oh well. I survived going on like this for this long....I can do it some more.
