like it says can i ever be heppy is their a way i can go thu my life and be happy till i die i m starting to think not i found out today fromm my girlfriend her ma says if i do not have a job by mid december she is sending me back to wisconsin and i do not want to go back their i hate it their i want to stay here and i can not stand it in a place where i am hated more then loved here i have nichole she loves me their i have jack fucking shit i wanna stay here but i do not know how i can do it i am so scared right now that i may lose her and i do not want to lose nichole i love her so much if i lose her i will die and not in a joking fashion i mean dead as a door nail i can not deal with being apart from her i have tryed all i can do but with a criminal past you get dick for help from anyone * puts his head down and starts to cry * please forgive me for a short blog i have to go now ............. albert :'(
