James's blog: "scribbles"

Broken-

shes far from perfect
i'm far from pure
but i dont like bein far from her
when life gets anxious,
she calms my nerves
and in return
i try to show her all shes worth
i been beaten so much
its hard to go
wanna appear unscathed
when it scars your soul
your views they start to change
you don't feel the same
but she can
feel my pain, in fact it feels the same
but still its,
hard to trust, its hard to fall in love
but still i see your real beauty behind all the rust
its how she, lights up when the stars don't shine
findin someone on my levels been hard to find
we don't take no shit, so we argue at times
our relationships always been hard to define
even though i never had a problem callin her mine
she knows i'll never have the time to give her all of my time


asked her "why me?" and she said    
cuz you you
took a deep pull and inhaled my new'
i took a long look and i think its true
had me shook but right then i think i knew
from what i see, i can tell she, she got her guards up
so i reassure her that pain, i aint gon' cause none
i can feel that when she touch me shes scared
i hope she knows that i aint runnin, i'm here
commitments alway been somethin i feared
but she aint trippin
i aint up to nothin i swear
we both, say what we mean and need no apologies
even if its mean, at least we show honesty
i'll be the last man to start castin stones
and have her all cooped up, trapped at home
you see she do her own thing
and we don't talk every day
but sometimes we spend long nights locked and away


i know her past and it don't bother me none
cuz when i told her mine i thought she'd probably run
but she still here, its weird
its gotta be love
cuz its sincere
its clear
its not only lust
we got a closet where we keep all the baggage
the same as we came, stained with bad habits
smoking cigarettes, layin on my mattress
she's everything i need, so we manage