James's blog: "life"

Sitting here alone with my eyes closed thinking about how it use to be, the laughter, love, holding each other. Now I look out to see that it is all gone, what once was a new love has seem to be all but dead and gone. why can't we get back to how it was? Why do I dream of an ice cold blade being thrust into my heart? God how i miss the feel of her kiss, the warmth of her touch, the sound of her voice saying i love you. She was mine and now it seems i have been replaced by another, and everyday my heart is being crushed more and more to the point that i will no longer have a heart. I am just a shell of what i use to be, just walking in a daze. I love her and i try to say what i feel and she seems to not care. Maybe someday I will be fine maybe not or maybe death will be a sweet ending. But today i just want to give up and fade away, cause I feel nothing I am numb, Yes I am just rambling but this is why I am Broken.