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My heart is breaking and all I can do is sit and watch my heart break. I know that I love him more than life itself and that I would give my own if it meant it would save his life. I know that he is the only one for me. I know that I would never leave again and yet I can't seem to show him that. I love him so much that it literately burns down to my soul. Every waking thought is of him, every dream the same. I call out to him in my sleep I have been told every night. He is literately my life and there is no other.
Now my problem is that he is confused, not in his heart and soul, but in his mind. He fears that I will run again and leave him as broken as I have feared so long that he would leave me. I have hurt him so many times and I can't change that, but I want so badly to prove that I would never do it again. My problem now is that I think he is so afraid that I that I would run again that I may not get a chance to prove to him that I won't run, I can't run again.
Baby, I know that I can't fix what has been done, but I want the chance to prove to you that I am not that person that I was back then when I gave into the fear. I am so much stronger, and yet so much weaker. My vunerability to you has increased 1,000 fold. I know that you need time to figure out what is inside of your head, but I want you to know that I am breaking a little more everyday. I need to hear you tell me that you love me, that you want me forever. I am yours, whether you want me right now or not. I can't imagine my life with anyone but you, can't breathe without you. You are my life, my world, my eternity. Please give me the chance to prove my love to you, please just one more chance and if I fuck up I will never ask for another. All I need is one chance, just one. I love you more than all things on all planes combined together and I want to be with you until the end of all enternities, now and forever.
