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no one ever saids "I want to work 7 days a week in a mall when I grow up" it just happends, I'm so sick of these high school aged kids giving me a hard time after they think they can help themselfs to things behind my counter at work, then confront me about with thier manenger while I'm on my other job. that bitch doesn't know how close she came from getting a one week ban from the mall. if I had of had one of the 2-way phones I would have called sercutry and she would have been givin a tresspass notice right there on the spot. I will be talking with my bosses tomarow and both of them can go to the proper people in charge to see that the bitch can keep her hands to herself from now on or stay the fuck out of the mall. I'm sick of the bullsiht!!!

I have to make a choise, do I stay in this bumkin small one hourse town or move to the big city? I am farmiler with where I am living now however I am not farmilar with the city at all. and I hate change but somtimes change is good right? my maneger at one of my jobs told me today she would give me a good reffernce that I was counting on yet I'm also very greatfull for. I still have to ask my other boss. I don't know though I really don't. I mean I don't have much of a life right now, working 7 days a week and I can't even aford to live here little own live in a huge city like ottawa. I hope I won't have to work around the clock doing 3 or 4 jobs a day. it would not be worth it at all. I just don't know. I need to make my mind up soon though.

here I am, 25y/o I have two jobs working my ass off 7 days a week. I rent a room from somone.I have no social life. I'm always broke. I'm always tired. no time for fun. no time for friends, no firends even if I had time. I have a cell phone that has costed me a small bunddle and the only one who ever calls me is my mom. this is starting to become depressing. somtimes I wonder if having a drink would make it all better. however I know that drinking will only make things worse. much worse. I don't have alot today, but I know that I will have nothing tomarow if I have a drink or smoke drugs. am I greatfull for my life and for being sober. I think I am. but somtimes I think I have a funny way of showing it. I need to start taking time for myself. I was going to go to an AA meeting tonight I could have really used one, but getting ready I started to dread leaving the house, having to walk down there and having to walk home. so I stayed at home and start to feel sorry for my self. I started to think of the worse things that could happend to me in my mind. my mind,my thoughts are evil somtimes. just waiting for the chance for me to listen to them, to entertain them, just waiting for me...... the little monster waiting for me to uncover is alchole saying come here have a drink, as you can see life is no good anyways wats the use. but today I am sober but for the grace of god. I just can't help feeling useless, not worthy, self pitty, I dont know how to change these faults that I have or how to stop these feelings. wat I do know is like everything else this too shall pass and in a few days I'll have forgoten wat it was that was borthering me. or it could turn even worse! I don't know only my higher power whom I call god knows for sure. I just hope that there will be an end to this lonley existance that I live very soon.

added some video's to my stash, also added some new videos to my profile and I have also added old school donkey kong to my profile so check it out and see how high you can get :D

I think its funny that people can read my blogs but not take a second and read my bulletin messages that I post!!

here I am, sitting in front of my computer, oh fun. I got the day off, I had a day off on firday aswell. this kicks ass!!! I only get a day off once every few months with my 2 jobs, however I think I'm going to start looking for a 3rd job. just till after x-mass. just going to sit around here and chill for the day. that sounds nice :D

Did you hear about the midnight rambler Everybody got to go Did you hear about the midnight rambler The one that shut the kitchen door He dont give a hoot of warning Wrapped up in a black cat cloak He dont go in the light of the morning He split the time the cockrel crows Talkin about the midnight gambler The one you never seen before Talkin about the midnight gambler Did you see him jump the garden wall Sighin down the wind so sadly Listen and youll hear him moan Talkin about the midnight gambler Everybody got to go Did you hear about the midnight rambler Well, honey, its no rock n roll show Well, Im talkin about the midnight gambler Yeah, everybody got to go Well did ya hear about the midnight gambler? Well honey its no rock-in roll show Well Im talking about the midnight gambler The one you never seen before Oh dont do that, oh dont do that, oh dont do that Dont you do that, dont you do that (repeat) Oh dont do that, oh dont do that Well you heard about the boston... Its not one of those Well, talkin bout the midnight...sh... The one that closed the bedroom door Im called the hit-and-run raper in anger The knife-sharpened tippie-toe... Or just the shoot em dead, brainbell jangler You know, the one you never seen before So if you ever meet the midnight rambler Coming down your marble hall Well hes pouncing like proud black panther Well, you can say i, I told you so Well, dont you listen for the midnight rambler Play it easy, as you go Im gonna smash down all your plate glass windows Put a fist, put a fist through your steel-plated door Did you hear about the midnight rambler Hell leave his footprints up and down your hall And did you hear about the midnight gambler And did you see me make my midnight call And if you ever catch the midnight rambler Ill steal your mistress from under your nose Ill go easy with your cold fanged anger Ill stick my knife right down your throat, baby And it hurts! by Mr.Keith Richards and Mr.Mick Jagger

You walked into the party Like you were walking onto a yacht Your hat strategically dipped below one eye Your scarf it was apricot You had one eye in the mirror As you watched yourself gavotte And all the girls dreamed that they'd be your partner They'd be your partner, and You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain I'll bet you think this song is about you Don't you? Don't you? You had me several years ago When I was still quite naive Well, you said that we made such a pretty pair And that you would never leave But you gave away the things you loved And one of them was me I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee Clouds in my coffee, You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain I'll bet you think this song is about you Don't you? Don't you? I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee Clouds in my coffee, and You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain I'll bet you think this song is about you Don't you? Don't you? Well, I hear you went up to Saratoga And your horse naturally won Then you flew your Lear jet up to Nova Scotia To see the total eclipse of the sun Well, you're where you should be all the time And when you're not, you're with Some underworld spy or the wife of a close friend Wife of a close friend, and You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain I'll bet you think this song is about you Don't you? Don't you? Don't you? You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain You probably think this song is about you You're so vain (so vain) I'll bet you think this song is about you Don't you? Don't you? Don't you? by Carly Simon

wat the fuck is up with all these morphing pics? at first they looked cool but they seem to be like assholes, everyone has one!! they are somewat retarded. and now everytime I look at my bulliton bored somone is asking me to send them money so they can make one for all the starving kids in 3rd world countrys, they say if everyone sent them a buck they would have enuff money to make one for the whole world. gosh I wish everyone would send me just a buck!! if everyone would just send me a buck, just a buck thats all I'm askin for, ya know I could maybe have a day off with out worrieing about how I'm going to pay my bills. after all this working 7 days a week sure does fucking suck!!

once agian I am sitting here after just getting done work. thank goddenss that I'm done for yet another day. however tomarow I don't have to work. oh yeah!! my first day off in over a month. but I'm so tired that I don't want to do anything that requres me to move. so yeah sex is pretty much outta the question lol. however I would really love some hot lil thing to come over and let me shower who the man is lol. anyways this week end is thanksgiving and I am afirad that the clostest thing to a turkey dinner I will be having is a 6 inch turkey sub from subway. sad don't ya think?? it could always be worse though. I do have a little bit of cash so I can find somthing to eat over the next few days if I need too. yes tis the season to be thankfull. and I am thankfull to have a day off and thankfull that its less then a week away from pay day :D