This can be the only explination, I DIDN'T COME OFF THAT LEDGE, AND I DIED...that would explain the HELL I'm living through...or maybe I didn't walk away from that accident, or maybe the pill and vodka coctail really worked...my hell is to love and never know real love in return, to show affection and be shunned...to be left by women for no apparent reason, since I'm in HELL I can't change to adapt to it, I'll stay a nice guy and take all of the crap handed to me for all eternity...no matter what it is...wow it's as clear as day now, am I really the age I think I am or have I been suffering much longer...how many more women will I give my heart to just to be dumped without a word reason, or how many are going to tell me that I'm to good for them...TO GOOD...WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT!!!how many are gonna use me only for a lay cause they're bored, maybe I fall to easy, yeah that's it all part of my HELL...well that explains it all...wish someone could save me...but I'm already in HELL