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I started everything to go back to school to get my AS in business. I took my assessment test and then I met with a councilor to choose my major and class I would need to complete. I looked it over and it doesn’t seem to hard I think the initial start up is what going to be difficult the most. I do have a few concerns with all of this. Most notably for the past 4 years I guess I have been a subject of the term "not economically viable” I have too much experience and not enough training. It ludicrous that something like that would apply to a person. I have seen it for sometime now though I know it to be true. Now what get the wheels in my head turning this experience in to a train wreck killing the passengers that are my hopes and dreams. Is that after two years I will still be stuck. Only now Ill have too much training and not enough experience. You know in 13 years I have had a lot of jobs. I have learn a lot of trades. The amount of talent and skill I possess have most people ask me “Why do you do that? Your so much better then that job.” Truth is I don’t fucking know. I have tried my hand at lot of things but in the end I’m not the guy that’s backed. I’m no fucking good.

Well the month of April is running me ragged. I have Bridges class this week, Then Job Club next week, Then the week after I have my assesment to see if I should be employed or go back to school. In this I have a court hearing on the 21th for child custody. So the month of April is shit just shit. The only rays of sunlight that manage to break the bleek overcast spanning thru out the month. Is the Birthdays of a few close friends of mine. Whom I care about very much. I love you guys and can't wait to celebrate your day with you.You're wonderful friends

Well it looks like it continues for me. After last weeks little escapade at the Apple store. I got on the phone with Apple tech support. I told the guy Viviek(the first time I called I got Julie from TX. But this time out sourcing strikes again Vivek I believe was in India) about what happened at the Apple store. So he start to take me to the steps to restore my iPod I tell him the problem and said that the tech at the store told me to send it in, But he didn't hear me the 3 times I said it. he told me to hit restore on iTunes ..like magically it will work because he told me to do it....and you never guess what happened...go on guess. Give up?? IT DIDNT WORK!!!! So he has me go in the driver manager and uninstall the iPod and reconnect it...he assured me that "this always works" so I follow all the steps and restart my computer.. go and restore and .........it doesn't work...by now I fell a strong dislike for Vivek. So he tell me now "he knows what the problem is" and we look in the control panel and administrative tools and change the name that of the driver that iPod is under. Not to worry "this always works. Never fails" I did it and we restart the computer only now the computer doesn't restart I get a black screen...I wish the Brando was here...it looked like the old DOSHELL screen but when I type in a command nothing happened wishful thinking I restart it twice more but still windows doesn't load. Vivek tells me to disconnect the iPod and bam the windows loads right up. I tell him what happens and he says it probably because the iPod need to catch up with the computer. So now I open iTunes and get the same message about having to restore my iPod. We take the steps and he tells me "not to worry everything will be ok iPod work now" it brings up the message that iPod has been restored and that it will restart..Vivek goes on that now everything is ok. It been fix it will restart and I can sync and listen to music. We wait and he spit out more dribble that give me a warm fuzzy feeling inside and then the one I know will surly doom me...Hope...And like the perpetual night that I live in the sun doesn't not shine. The message tells me that "iTunes had detected an iPod in Recovery mode you must restore this iPod would you like to open iTunes and do it now?"...AHHHHHHAHHAHHAAHHA! so as I read this in a heavily sarcastic voice that is drained of all but mock surprise and I told you so inflection on words like "THIS DIDN'T WORK". Vivek tell me to "Go ahead and send it in and they will fix or replace. Just find then nearest Apple store....WAIT WHAT..!!...Go to the Apple store....I WAS JUST AT THE APPLE STORE. They told me to call tech...who told me to go to the Apple store when I emailed them in the first place. HAHAHHAHA its MADDING!!... So now he say that I can to a warranty replacement. I guess when he said it was a good idea, When I told him that was I wanted to do when I called it wasn't good enough and he took an hour. To send me on this little process of elimination of ideas that never fail. I told him that I was just at the Apple store. He said that I could go back, When I explained that it was 200 miles away. He said that he would send a shipping package out. What I wanted to do in the fist place!!! I would take 7 to 8 business days and I will have my iPod back. So again another hour conversation with no real results to show for it...Why WHY WHHHYYY!!!!! I supported Apple when other people said they were shit. When everyone said Buy a Zune iPod suck I stuck by my choice. and this is how a get rewarded for my loyalty. Never pays off Big business don't give a shit about the consumer since "customer service" and "quality product" are selling term and not business practices. Needless to say that I am GNB...

So yesterday Goldie and I headed up north. We had to get her ring out of a pawn shop before the 7th. She wants to sell it on eBay. I figured what the hell why not. So long drive, quick stop and WDT. Ran by a friends house to return a jersey I borrowed(yup I’m one of those friend that ACTUALLY returns stuff that is borrowed.) But she wasn’t home. So we stopped by my moms for a quick visit but she wasn’t home. Of course not!! So chatted with my sister for a little bit. Logged online to find the address for the Apple store in Victoria Gardens. Now not that anyone ever does but a while ago I put up a blog about how my iPod just up and died on me. The second one in a month. Well we get there and the place is packed. On the way in over-hear some guys asking question about getting his lab top fixed that he just bought. I guess I’m not the only one with problems with my *new* apple product. I explain the problem. First the girl I talk to looks like a deer in head lights when I explain what I need. She asked me the basic questions which I answered before she asked. In my description of my problem. then she ask what I would like her to do. Well since in under a month old and still under warranty I would like it fixed. So she takes me to a computer where another employee ask what the problem. Scott I believe his name was. Well Scott says he’ll take over and the girl takes off. I give Scott the run down. He is immediately more responsive. telling me he has encountered this problem before. Plus gave me a little incite that if I’m running my iPod on windows then it won’t fix the problem fully. I guess that Apple’s way of sticking it to the people who don’t own a MAC Well we hook up my iPod to a computer and let it charge. The last time I plugged it in was a few weeks ago. Then try to run the restore on the MAC and of course it doesn’t work!! Scott tell me that the code it gave him was new to him. So he runs to the back talk to the tech people. He comes back five minutes later and tells me to send it in. Really? Send it in to the people who told me to take it to the store in the first place.ho ho. Fuck Apple. Finally we get to Mickey’ place. Quick visit with everybody there. So we head over to Rene’s for karaoke. A bithday party was already in session. So it gave the place a mid- sized crowd. I put in my set and started with Ace of Spades, (Which warranted me praises for the party goers.) Then I tried a new one with Dairy of Jane. awwwwful. I was off pitch the whole time. I blame the acoustics of the place. I went back to the well with System of a Down Sugar. Again another hit with the crowd. It was a fun time for all. The next morning or I should say later that morning since we got back to Mickey’s at 1 a.m. I woke up at 5 and was pacing around the house bored. Yeah I’m sure I’m know as the weird guy in that household now. Finally at 9 Goldie got up and we went to the store to pick up some stuff for breakfast. I cooked breakfast for everyone. Then we visited again. No one wanted us to leave, Angie Kaz and Mickey tried to talk us into staying for Dean’s but no can do. So now it time to unwind to face another week and get read for out next visit. and now some flava for my Juggalo family DARK LOTUS IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so last night I caught the flick GONE BABY GONE. Anyone who knows me know how much of an avid Ben Affleck fan that I am, and this movie proves why he’s fucking great. This movie was fucking phenominal. The cast was great. Everyone played there part perfectly. It has been a long time since I have see a movie this good. It was like reading a good book. I just couldn’t put it down. I got pissed when I had to pause it. I mean before had I just figured whatever another movie. But that attitude went right out the window during the opening credits. This movie kept me guessing, just when I thought I had it figured out. It went into a whole other direction. Affleck prove he had a unique talant as a actor. won an oscar for writing. Now with this he proves that he can direct. In my book anyway. I regret that I never got to see this movie in the theaters. If you get a chance rent this flick today.

It never pay to think of other peopls feelings It will just end up blowing up in your face

So Got home yesterday. Was up in temecula For 4 day working with my "girlfriend's" brother. We were building stalls for some horse cutting event. 250 stall in 4 days I guess from what they said it was done kinda quick. I did get a chance to stop and see some friends while I was up there. Sadly i left dissapointed on how I was greeted by friend I haven't seen in a while. It got me thinking about how I use to be. I got depressed for a whole diffrent reason. I figure that is not all that intresting but that kinda the point I came to realize there isnt shit that intresting in my life right now. How fucking sad is that when you wake up one moring and just cant find anything in you life worth talking about. I think ill run out tonight and randomly throw bricks from a moving car at people.....

I've been reading this book called The Turner Diaries. I was tripping out, I found myself liking the book over all. There are a lot of views that I dont agree with. I 'll be the first to tell you that is racist and yea some would remember as the book Timothy McViegh use as the blueprint for Oklahoma City bombing. What I found most terrifying was how similar things are in the book to the way things are going now. Dr. William Pierce (Who wrote under the pseudonym Andrew Macdonald) was brilliant if nothing else, and the foreword by Lyle Stuart put a perspective on why this book should be available in bookstores. White, Black, Brown I would suggest you read this book.

Alright been a while since wrote one. Here it is I moved back down to Brawley. Living with Goldie In our own apartment. So we starting out on out own again. This time I'm not going to be a idiot and let my family fuck it up. Out apartment is a little bit of a fixer-upper. I got my El Camino back. I'll Add some photos of it. Been stored for a few years. I'm also gonna try and reconnect with the people I met on fubar. But right now its late and im rambling so I'm out.

So I moved back down to Brawly been here for about a week and I'm fucking bored. Not much really to do I'm looking for a job. I have my car but no cash to work on it. Other then that it cool don't have to deal with the drama that I did before While living at my Moms. Well hopefully by next week things will pick up