Current mood: PISSED OFF & FEELING FINE
I see you, I feel you, and you are so near.
I taste, smell, and hear you. You are right here.
In front of me I look, and see only what I see.
I love you with all my heart, but this is no good for me.
You are so cute; in you're on special way.
You are with me, and yet you are so far, far, far away.
Why?
Don't be so sweet; don't be so kind, you are only going to leave me far, far behind.
As you give me a huge hug with your sweet warm embrace, I can't help but to wonder, why you have that beautiful look upon your face?
I want to be with you and yet I don't. I shall not kiss you, I shall not want.
I don't want to feel pain, I don't want the rejection, I only want to love and I can't keep guessing.
Is that wrong?
To me it is a waste; to me you are a disgrace.
I love it when you kiss me I never want to wait.
You only try to be nice, it isn't always right, but little do you know,
You are slashing pieces into my beautiful heart.
That fucking hurt!
Why can't you understand?
I fucking will not be held in the palm of your dirty hands…
Damn it!
But fuck everything else, I know what to do, I will continue to be strong, because that is what I should do.
I will not stumble, I will falter. I will be strong and I will fucking conquer.
I'll conquer my fears; I'll conquer my tears.
I'll scream and shout and maybe chug a few cold beers.
Burp!
I will watch you from a far and be glad that I did.
I will remember you as you once was, and how I lived. But you will never see me again of how I once was, you will never be able to hold me and feel the warmth my love.
And how warm it is!
So, I leave you now with all my wishes and fears, but I will never drown myself with my own fucking tears…. of you.
