Kendra cherry bomb me's blog: "Things that run thru my head"

So this is something I wrote 6 months ago too bad I didn't share it then I could have saved myself an additional 6 months of suffering and hope if I had.

BRAVE

I'm brave in the middle of the night.
In front of a keyboard knowing what's right.
I'm brave in the middle of the night.
I know what I deserve and when actions aren't right.
I'm brave in the middle of the night.
The words overwhelm my mind and flow out from beneath my finger tips
when I'm brave in the middle of the night.

I spend the day thinking of what I feel and why.
Afraid of the consequences of the words running in my mind.
In the day the thought of losing you tears me apart inside.
Tears form and my chest grows tight.
I know things must be said and I hope I will be heard.
But I'm afraid of what you'll say and I'm afraid of what you'll do.

You said "I'll only push so far" I guess it's time to say "Me too"

And now it's night and I'm brave in the middle of the night.

~me

Okay so maybe it's not bravery so much as being resigned to the fact that things can't continue in the current vein. Still for a short time I'm going to claim to be brave. I hate to lose someone and will fight to keep them in my life but if honest feelings cause them to leave it is what it is.

Adding because it fits:
Love is a gift that can't be forced or bought only nurtured or neglected. As much as we love someone, we may at time realize we need to step back to be healthy (either for them or ourselves). Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them, merely that you need to weigh your and their feelings against the healthiest, best actions for everyone effected.

Have faith but reserve judgement.