so it comes to pass that what i found i lost. what was once mine is not anymore. i have nobody to blame, choice is choice. this isnt what the hell i want but what the hell can one do? i seek no interest in this shit anymore, i only want what rightfully should be next to me. i still think of the odds, it just doesn't fkn happen.. is that too much to ask for? i am where i am on MY terms, it had nada to do with anything other than the arrangements that was presented before and after. i just want my peace back.. 513 ~