Its been a while since I've posted anything and since the last time things have changed drastically! When things have been a certain way for over 12 years and then you realize change might be inevitable...its hard. I'm actually staying on my own right now to think and make one of the hardest decisions in my life. Whether to continue with my marriage or to call it quits...It's amazing how many people it will affect one way or another and no matter what I do someone will be hurt. Thats what I hate the most knowing I will be the cause of hurt for someone...whether it be me or someone else. Its funny how you can't wait to grow up and be an "adult" but how I wish things could be so simple. Even then the simple "break up" wasn't has hard as what Im going through now. Regardless life will go on but somehow it will never be the same. I hope I make the right decison.