Beth's blog: "Poems"

I have fallen and there is no getting up

I will go back from whence I came

Never to be seen or heard from again

The light that once was

Has finally burnt out

There is no hope

I have lived long enough

To see that this world holds nothing for me

Death and destruction are always around

Nothing left to keep me around

Lies and deceit are the games that are played

For someone like me

There is no reason to stay

I am depleted of hope, love, and strength

Soldiering on is no longer there

I have been fighting for something that just isn’t there

Life has me beat

With all the lies and deceit

There is no room for the person that I am

The last shred of hope I give to those who still fight

In the end we all have to die

As I sit in silence

There is no place to run

Laid out before me

Are the all the things 

I have done

All the hurt and the pain

From the past until now

I washes over me

In waves

I hurt so many

With my childish games

And the words that I say

So I sit here in silence

Forgiving myself for everything

Hope and pray for

Those that I hurt along the way

Time to set it all free

Learn not to go back 

To the old me.

I stand in the midst of a world in chaos

Doing what I can to not get caught in it

Being true to myself

Being who I am

Inspite of other's

I love deeply and completely

Trust without question

Only to get hurt

No matter the situation

So here I stand

Alone it would seem

With little patience in my pocket

Heart on my sleeve

Hopes and dreams in my mind

I stand in the wake of chaos

All around me

Searching for a way to break through

The world is falling apart around me

Uncertainty is what follows me

Hope gets lost in the shuffle

As doubrs run deep in my veins

Patience is lost

While positivve slightly glimmers

With each struggle

Comes a dose of strength

As I fight to get through 

Yet another day

My friends are reminders

Of the possibilities

That have yet to come

Steadfast and true

Beacons of light

Through the dark days

My world is slowly 

Being put back together

Adventures are what lay ahead

Nothing more can be said

I will take the path before me

Hope and pray against all odds

I find my niche in the world around me

Even though it seems to fall apart

Complicated

Not worth the time

So confused and broken

Give so much

Get nothing back

I am tired of

all the lies and hate

Time to move on

Get back on the right path

Where I know I am worth it

No matter how complicated

I seem to be

Not everyone will understand

Or stand by when things get tough

I will stand steady and stay strong

Your words are like smoke

  lingering around me

    as I try to breath

Your face changes like a mask

  happy to sad

    uncertain which one is real

There is no escape

  from your grasp

   a web is what you weave

I am caught and tangled

  no breaking free

    all I want is more

There is a simple song

I hear when I think of you

A song that brightens my day

Gives me strength 

Makes me smile

I have moments

When my emotions run high

A thought enters my mind

A thought of you

I am calm and centered

Until I start thinking

about the person you are

not just the picture I see

You are more than your words

A voice I have never heard

A simple song enters my mind

I hope to share it with you

All in good time.

I have stood at the edge of a cliff

Fighting myself to keep control

Of these doubts and fears

Clinging to what is left of hope and love

The few things that keep me going

I wage a war against the pain

Not quite sure what will remain

A glimpse of light that I see

Are the smiles that my children show me

I keep everyone at arm's length

Afraid of all this rage

Do I fall or do I fight

Right now there is nothing but the night

One day at a time

Minute by minute

I shall see another day

Fight on through all the torment

Find my light that will make me stay

Don’t worry about me

It’s the way things have to be

No matter how things change

I know in my heart everything will be okay

Don’t worry baby

It’s the way things go

I can’t be sad

I never imagined

I would have a friend like you

I finally understand

Why things have to be this way

You are who you are

A rambling man

Your world it the stage

Music your life

Baby don’t worry about me

I will do just fine

I am stronger than I realize

Just don’t forget

Follow your dreams

Follow your heart

I am here for you always

2000 miles away

Happy to be

Happy to see

Happy to know

Happy to go

I am happy to be me

I am happy to thee

I am happy to know you all

I am happy to go away

Nothing is forever

Be happy with what you have

Don't look for what is not there

Or you will surely be mad

Life is full of ups and downs

Find friends that stand by you 

I am grateful for every moment

I shall always cherish them all