November 25, 2006 Tears
Tears seem to fall when you least want them to. You try to keep ur pain from being seen by people that worry about you and love you but the tears are because of them. You know it hurts them to see u cry and it upsets them to see ur in so much pain. Loniness sometimes can be the biggest reason for the tears. You love someone but can't be with them when you want to. To want to be able to help take care of them when they are sick or just down. To be able to put ur arms around them and hug them and hope it helps them feel better. To be there when they just need to scream because they are just fed up with the world at that moment. The want and need to be able to just see the face of the one you gave ur heart to. To see their lips move when they talk to you and the look in their eyes when they look at you knowing they love you back. Hoping they feel as bad when they are away from you. My biggest problem I guess is not being able to talk to him when I want or need to because of course they have a life besides being with you lol damn don't ya just hate that shit. I wanna go out in the woods and scream the pain away sometimes but that doesn't get them any closer to you just gets it out for alittle bit. The pain and loniness comes right back when you see something funny and know you can't share it with them right then and there, or when ur watching a sad movie and you need a shoulder to cry on. Oh well someday it'll be over with and I get to be able to reach out and finally touch him. Til then the tears will keep coming back and the pain still stays hoping to finally get taken away.
