Am not quite sure what I'm doing anymore...Ever. And just so you know, this isn't meant to be one of those "Oh please, show me some pity!" Deals. This is just for me to say. I wake up with no real aim, I mean I know what I want to do with my life, but I don't know how to occupy my life until then. I'm always broke, so when my friends do something, I need to get money from them and I can't pay them back, which makes me feel like shit.
I can never keep a relationship because I can't seem to keep anyone happy. I can always find a way to do something wretchedly stupid. And anyone I seem to crush on remotely, finds someone else. And if that's not it, they live thousands of miles away. The most amazing, beautiful, wonderful girl I have ever meant lives clear across the country, and as much as I want her, I'm afraid, like everything else, it won't work out.
When the weather starts getting nice I get depressed, but just when it starts, not when it stays. Most people get depressed in winter, but I guess I'm not like most people lol. But when I get depressed, I think about stuff like this, so I don't think it's anyhting to worry about, it's not like I'm a manic depressive.
Love.