i am an emotional wreck right now. im sitting home alone on 4th of july at 11:46pm, my bestfriends sis in law basically is 3 hours away dying, and there is a chance im lossing my bestfriend too. its like seriously wtf. idk what i would do if i lost her. and its not like we arent going to be friends anymore she isnt going to be here....with me.....my best friend and my nieces gone. i keep trying NOT TO cry but its so fucking hard. its like i have no one to turn to. its me. all aloone. again. my worst fear coming true. its like everyone has that one person that is always there and always got ur back and never misses a step in ur life and thats her. i spend all my spare time with her. every min i can get im with her and my girls. its like i joke around but dude she is going to be basically half way across the other side of earth. not just the united states but over wherever it is. (i know where it is but im not really talkin bout it to official).