So, the biggest question on my plate is...Where do I see myself in 1 year? Well, it's a question that many have asked me, and few seem to know me. I find myself to be creative, and most people would beat themselves up for thinking too long! Not me, a friend of mine says it's like putting your brain on a treadmill. Which is what I do, I let my mind run.
I ask myself a lot of questions, I seem to have no answers for. I honestly think, I should have the answers though. I'm not a dark person, I love bright things, and anything with color. I am not a depressed person, I am happy all the time.(well, most) I have 4 very important people in my life who make me that way. Happy, energized, waking up in the morning to see what awaits for me, talking, laughing, kissing, hugging... It's never ending.
My problem I guess would be, I'm torn. I have several gentlemen who are well...Interested....And, I don't want to take the chance of being hurt, or hurting anyone else. Another question arises, what do you do? What part of the brain do you listen too? Do you run around the city until you can't think of that person anymore? Do you go and steal roses for that person and pray they feel the same way? Do you write bad checks to have fun? Do you frantically clean your house just to give you something to do? What do you do???? Honestly???
I love the feeling of laughing and having fun. This person only makes it so much more fun. The excitement of what will be said, thought of...The next "move"... The feelings are endless, but yet....There are no words to describe them. I'm afraid to say anything, with of the fear of my friend running away. This person will be considered a friend until the end of time as far as I'm concerned. Just some floating questions that are left unanswered....
