Tonight, a restless night for me. Filled with unsureness, unawareness, and most of all, curiosity. My mind wanders away from me, where no laundry or movie watching can side track my mind. I have managed to clean my house, fold laundry, do my dishes, watch a movie 3 times now, and do/or gather all the trash in my home. It hasn't been this clean in forever! I still need to put laundry away, along with dishes, sweep and mop the floors, and scrub the microwave. But on the other hand, my mind still wanders. I'm not sure if this is normal or not being I am young, and a person who anyone could get along with~I wonder....I wonder what is would be like to travel the world, near and far, stay out all night and be entertained by the people of the city, laugh with delight and excitement, look into someone's eyes and just say Thank You for being you. I find pleasure out of watching people have fun, and enjoy life. I'm curious about what that life might be like? I wish to travel to Italy, Paris, Rome and Spain..Most of all. I wish to dance the finest dances and hold next to me the partner who gracefully carries me across the floor. I smile at even the slightest thought. I wish to hold and help cure the sickest children and only wish the best for them and their family. I am curious to see what life would be like to travel the world and show the world the different dances, different cultures, the availability to learn. That anyone could do it.
My heart is huge and it just keeps growing unawaringly. But, I like it. I love the feeling of love, to give and receive love. I enjoy the feeling of knowing that in some way, I am helping someone, or making someone happy. Even a slight smile fills my heart with love and that adrenaline rush that you can't get anywhere else. I can't get enough of it.
Although, I feel I am stuck and my curiosity will only remain just that. My family, my life - it's all about doing things for others. I know that is where I get this all from. The restlessness, wanting to explore, care - wish nothing but the best for people. Even those who don't care much for me, I still wish them only the best. Forgive, but never forget. One of the best things I probably ever learned.
I want to experience only the best. The excitement of life, the enjoyment of laughter, the smile of a child, the fact that I feel complete. Explore and enjoy. I am deeply curious and even more curious to actually explore it all. What more could a girl like me ask for other than the riches and fame? What good is that when you don't feel complete after getting it all? I just want to fulfill my dreams, curiosity and just live up life in the meantime. I really can't ask for anything else. Just to cure the curiosity.
