I would like to find the one that cares for me as much I care for him. I had though that I had found him but as always it is all about what they want with no regard to anyone else. I wish that he would have done the one thing that I had asked but I guess that was just to much for him. 20 minutes was to much. I have gotten use to disappointment but this is getting to be to much. I am hoping that it will all get better but I just don't see it. I just wanted to come first every now and again. I don't see that happening but I will be ok. What good is life or being with someone if they don't make you happy anymore? I am not saying that everything is bad just that I wish that he could show me that I matter to him. I miss the kids and I can not wait for them to get home.Well good luck to you all who are looking to be happy.