Demonbladie's blog: "what a day"

I would like to find the one that cares for me as much I care for him. I had though that I had found him but as always it is all about what they want with no regard to anyone else. I wish that he would have done the one thing that I had asked but I guess that was just to much for him. 20 minutes was to much. I have gotten use to disappointment but this is getting to be to much. I am hoping that it will all get better but I just don't see it. I just wanted to come first every now and again. I don't see that happening but I will be ok. What good is life or being with someone if they don't make you happy anymore? I am not saying that everything is bad just that I wish that he could show me that I matter to him. I miss the kids and I can not wait for them to get home.Well good luck to you all who are looking to be happy.

I now have four new puppies to deal with. Someone dumped them on the side of the road. I now have to bottle feed them and get them winged. I am glad that this is a reminder for why I did not want anymore children. I have a lot to do and not a lot of time to do it in. I have to take the kids to the dr then in a few days I am going to have surgery. It is no big thing just the fact that I am not sure how everything is going to turn out. I think that all will be ok and I am glad that my mom is going to be taking care of all 6 of my babies. 4 puppies and 2 children. Well that is about all for me I just want you all to have a good day.

Finding true love for everyone is hard but I do believe that I have found it. I had to go throw a few bad relationships to find the right one. In a few of thous I almost lost myself. The man that I am with now has always let me be myself and we have had fun with it. I am glad I am who I like now not just who the person I am with wanted me to. Now I am happy and soon I will be even happier. A friend once told me that I had to be with a lot of wrong guys to find the right one. I do think that I have done it. He plays his games and stays out of my way. He does what I ask and goes back to his game. The best thing about him is he has a job and he loves me too. There are no games with us just understanding.