I don't know where to begin or even what to say...im in a situation even I don't understand...and it gets more complicated and harder to deal with as it goes on rather than easier...I dont understand people and the decisions they make...or why they feel and think the way they do....doesnt everyone make mistakes? even if they dont know what they did?....and if u r a real friend dont u at least try to forgive them and get past it...no...apparently not...apparently u dig them as far into the ground as u can while making them feel lower than dirt and then completely turn your back on them completely after stepping all over them....apparently what I think is right in friendship is wrong and I have the whole concept messed up....what are u supposed to do when someone doesnt want u....pushes u aways....yet u still leave the daily comment and message just to say im thinkin of u....and then u get told u werent there for them...what if they really were there yet u just looked right past them??? and threw them to the side...cuz u took them for granted...but when they decided to b treated better than just one option of many....they are the bad one?.....wtf?????then they do little things that make u wonder what its all about..but refuse to actually have a conversation....imagine actually talkin through an issue....oh I know that a fuckin novel idea....one that apparently is only in my head....but silly me...I LOVE my friends and would do anything to get back righth with them or to forgive and make ammends...cuz everyone hurts...and every one fucks up....it wouldnt hurt if we didnt care right? so how do u just stop fucking caring?????? guess I was never as good a friend as I thought I was!!!
