The mind is a funnel of tunnels. There are hidden shadows, grizzly fears waiting deep in the shadows. Tucked so snuggled until they are alerted. They slowly begin stimulating our thoughts. Evading our hearts desire. They work their darken particles into our mind, making us question what our heart is screaming. We begin to listen; doubts arousing, a storm of clouds create a curtain of confusion. Things are no longer clear. I scream “I Don’t Know “I can’t see, my eyes are blind, the shadows are racing to one tunnel and then another tunnel. I tell you I can’t. You tear at my agony turning your back and walking away. My heart bangs against my chest it screams for your return. I ach for you, but my mind feeds me grizzly confusion. I sit and struggle with the conflicting forces. The ach for you becomes overwhelming. My heart leads me to you. Ignoring the grizzly shadows. As they scramble back to their tunnels. I hold you in my arms. Knowing I have you now. Fears evaporating I feel the intense love, you belong to me. Why do I try to deny my love for you, why do run from it?
I see the flame in your eyes fading as I struggle with my shadows. I hold on to that last spark keeping it ignited. As I fight my grizzly confusion. The match in my hand I am not willing to blow it out. One more conflicting emotions. I know the match I hold will not flame again. The shadows would have won leaving me without you by my side. My heart hits harder against my chest. Releasing agony of pain, my fear is standing in front of me, I am heartbroken again. The shadows bow to me. You “FOOL” !
Written By Metessa
Feb. 25, 2010