WHAT IF……………?????????????
Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about things that have happened
As I look over the past I wonder if I had done things differently who would I be today
Would I have the same knowledge , my kids, and my friends that I have
Or would all be changed in some way, like this existence never existed
Perhaps we all wonder and wish we could go back and change things
The big what if lingering in our minds, and the regrets, pain and sorrow
But in reality if we do that are we changing who we have become
For it is all that has happened that helped us develop into who we are
As a child we learn from our parents, friends, teachers and just watching others
It was our choice to use what we learn in the manor we choose
Granted probably we made some wrong choices but we learned from them
Some were hard lessons and some where easy ones but we grew
There were some things that might have happened to one that was not a choice
Things that created hurt, pain, sorrow, even lasting fears that might never leave
They leave a mark in one’s mind and on one’s soul, that influence how one acts
Can prevent one from fully living their life, or make one feel they have no worth
But in a way these things too have help make us who we are today
They gave us the strength and courage to continue living
Shown us that even though one is battled and torn, that one can survive
Changed in a way but yet stronger in mind and soul
If one was able to go back and change just one thing then what
That little thing could have the biggest impact on the future
Change who one has become and also can change others too
Does one really want that to happen or maybe things become worse
Right now I am reminded of an old classic movie, it be on soon for sure
It’s a Wonderful Life, sure most of heard of it if not seen a million times
But in the guy wished he was never born, his wish was granted
Guess what he realized that if he not born things changed but for the worse
Found out that through out his life he touched others and helped them
Made a difference in their life’s, and they in turned did for others
That each little thing matters and that each person matters too
And that his life was not so bad after all, in fact he had a good life
Maybe each of us should take time to think what if this didn’t happen
Would I still have all the good things in my life I have now
Would I be the same person and would others be too
Granted there would be bad too but is it really that bad
I know if I look back on my life there are things I wish did not happen
But I realize that if not for those things I might not have what I have now
I look at my kids and think what a gift that was give to me
I would not give that up for anything one can offer
There are others things in my life too that I can see
I have a family and they have been there for me good and bad
Lately I have met new people and they have become good friends
I have grown both in mind and in spirit, they have touched me and I them
Also there is one who has come into my life and made it complete
Shown me that yes I am some one, gave me the courage to become me
Pointed out that my life was not bad, helped me see through all the doubts
All that has happened has lead me to this point and if I changed it would it be the same
So when you feel that you wish you could change something
Think long and hard, for that one little change could end up being the biggest
And some of the things you have in your life now might not be
In fact you might end up with a life that is worse not better
WONDER IF IT IS WORTH IT? THINK NOT
