TRINITY's blog: "TRINITY'S MUSINGS"

You're Gonna Be Lyrics Reba Mcentire 6lbs and 9oz. lookin' up at me Like I have all the answers I hope I have the ones you need I've never really done this, now I know what scared is Sometimes I'll protect you from everything that's wrong Other times I'll let you just find out on your own But that's when you'll be growin', And the whole time I'll be knowin CHORUS: You're gonna fly with every dream you chase You're gonna cry, but know that that's okay Sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there You're gonna see that sometimes bad is good We just have to believe things work out like they should Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me You're gonna be I'm afraid you'll have to suffer through some of my mistakes Lord knows I'll be trying OH to give you what it takes What it takes to know the difference Between getting by and livin' ‘Cause anything worth doing is worth doing all the way Just know you'll have to live with all the choices that you make So make sure you're always givin' way more than you're takin' REPEAT CHORUS Someone's everything You're gonna see Just what you are to me You're gonna fly with every dream you chase We just have to believe things work out like they should Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me You're gonna be Always loved by me You gonna be (always loved by me) Love this song for a parent talking to a child The first time the saw them That no matter what I will always love you But what are some of the thoughts of the child When they gone a stray........ lost their way Then woke up ?

Can you still love me I look back through the years Do not like what I see The things I've done Are things best forgot But they linger on They haunt my mind For can you understand Why for I do not I seemed to forget what you taught Took it all threw it away If only for a while Had to make you sad Even make you cry For you thought i knew better You had faith in me Yet I let you down I let hate and grief rule my mind Not the love and lessons you gave I threw them out ignored all Became someone you did not know Not the child you raised But a stranger A nothing But did you still love me Through the years did you see That once i woke up I tried to be what you saw The child you could be proud of To say to some one Hey that my kid She done good Or did you turn you head Are you looking now Can you see My kids See who they are They are part of you The lessons you taught They live in them See I remembered Though I ignored Became a lost soul For a while I tried to make up Give them what you gave me Can you see Can you forgive Can you love me

Both have doubts Both have fears What if they just talked

LEARNING & GROWING In this life we all are constantly learning Each day brings new and exciting things They may not always be happy things Some will be bad and hard to understand But if we take them and learn then our lives will be better As I take at look at myself What do I see? I am not the same person I was a year ago I’ve grown I’ve found myself And guess what I am still learning This will never stop As I look at the talks and discussions I have I find that they are a way in which I am searching for answers To understand myself and others I think if the questions and if the doubt stop Then the growing will And one becomes stuck in one thing Never able to see pass the tip of their nose Will never see the beauty in the world Will not see those around them as they are For judgments and such will have been made Not on facts or on who that person is But on perceived ideas Ones that have not been challenged Let’s say growing up we are taught this is wrong To love another woman (or if man another man) To be with them It is beaten into our brains So what we do We never question it And if we did We feel quilt But as we get older And start to wonder Then questions come out We search for answers We learn Even if it is not for you One begins to understand and accept That is not wrong That this is who some one is And to judge them is not our place And who knows One can find a true friend For you see pass the cover And see the person I think that after talking to others I found that many have questions And they have doubts about them selves This is good For one wants to learn They want to understand Try to tell them …don’t be hard on yourself Take each day as it comes I think you will be surprised At what you find For you will see That life is more than just words and feelings It is a whole experience One you will feel in your mind, heart and soul And when all come together There is a peace This is what we all thrive for the inner peace Sometimes we find it And we cherish it For it can go away And then we search for it again And each time we achieve it It stays longer Why we lose it Because life does not stand still We are always moving forward Things happen people enter our life They bring new experiences Ones that might change our thinking So then we learn and understand We grow a little more Was talking to a friend the other day There is lot going on within her life And she is having a bad time of it But what I admire is that she is not giving up She is taking each day as it comes Looking ahead dealing with each obstacle in her way Realizing that all that is happening Is making her a stronger person Taking the bad… turning it into good She is learning each and every day And teaching those around her too And isn’t that the point Taking what we know and do Using it and sharing it We learn not only by going through the experience But also watching others and what they do The day that we think that we know it all Or the day we feel that what is the use Is probably the day that we die Maybe not in the physical sense But inside our hearts, our mind and soul For then we are not open to the world We do not see the people and things around us It is like we go through life with blinders on And that is a pity For there is so much more out there If one just takes the time to see

LIFE’S A JOURNEY Ever take a road trip just driving in your car Sometimes the road will be straight and smooth And it seems like nothing can come in your way For one can see for miles, nothing ahead but smooth sailing So it is the foot to the pedal full steam ahead One just steams ahead without a care in the world Not paying attention to what is around them Not see where they are or what can happen But then something happens They break down in the middle of no where There they are standing there looking around Lost in the middle of who knows where With no where to turn… nor know where to go Shaking their head wondering why me Not a clue to how or why Maybe one should have paid attention to the road signs One that said next exit 100 miles Or should have check the tires at last stop How about the little noise or ping one blew off What ever it did not matter …………then Now it does and you shake your head wondering Thinking that you should have paid attention Been more aware of things then you are prepared But nope you did not and look where it got you On some road in the middle of now where Life is a journey too in a way just a road one travels It has it twists and turns, bumps and smooth roads And it has it own roads signs and pits stops One just has to pay attention and see them To be aware of the things and people around them How many times does one just ignore things? For hey it is not happening to me why care My life is set, I have the things I want and need Nothing can happen to me for I am secure I work hard, cause no waves go with the flow But think…. What happens around you does affect you The gossiping and back stabbing at work You know what they are saying is wrong But you keep your mouth shout Never thinking hey that could be me Or how about the homeless on the street You might walk by them every day thinking they bums Did you ever think that they might have been like you? Had a job, a family all that you had Then one day all was gone There are things everyday that one sees that are wrong The injustices played upon others Whether it is because of race, sex or religion And most close their minds and hearts Thinking never happen to them Then one day it does they are the ones affected Then all blinders are off they become advocates Speaking out, fighting for what they believe And then wonder why, others not hear, see what’s happening Not thinking they did not before…….. Till it was them Maybe we all should stop, look, listen and see What is happening around us? Then think ……. Can this one day be me? Can I be the one that is homeless? The one that is persecuted for my beliefs? There is a saying But for the grace of God……………… That could be Think about it

WHAT IF……………????????????? Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about things that have happened As I look over the past I wonder if I had done things differently who would I be today Would I have the same knowledge , my kids, and my friends that I have Or would all be changed in some way, like this existence never existed Perhaps we all wonder and wish we could go back and change things The big what if lingering in our minds, and the regrets, pain and sorrow But in reality if we do that are we changing who we have become For it is all that has happened that helped us develop into who we are As a child we learn from our parents, friends, teachers and just watching others It was our choice to use what we learn in the manor we choose Granted probably we made some wrong choices but we learned from them Some were hard lessons and some where easy ones but we grew There were some things that might have happened to one that was not a choice Things that created hurt, pain, sorrow, even lasting fears that might never leave They leave a mark in one’s mind and on one’s soul, that influence how one acts Can prevent one from fully living their life, or make one feel they have no worth But in a way these things too have help make us who we are today They gave us the strength and courage to continue living Shown us that even though one is battled and torn, that one can survive Changed in a way but yet stronger in mind and soul If one was able to go back and change just one thing then what That little thing could have the biggest impact on the future Change who one has become and also can change others too Does one really want that to happen or maybe things become worse Right now I am reminded of an old classic movie, it be on soon for sure It’s a Wonderful Life, sure most of heard of it if not seen a million times But in the guy wished he was never born, his wish was granted Guess what he realized that if he not born things changed but for the worse Found out that through out his life he touched others and helped them Made a difference in their life’s, and they in turned did for others That each little thing matters and that each person matters too And that his life was not so bad after all, in fact he had a good life Maybe each of us should take time to think what if this didn’t happen Would I still have all the good things in my life I have now Would I be the same person and would others be too Granted there would be bad too but is it really that bad I know if I look back on my life there are things I wish did not happen But I realize that if not for those things I might not have what I have now I look at my kids and think what a gift that was give to me I would not give that up for anything one can offer There are others things in my life too that I can see I have a family and they have been there for me good and bad Lately I have met new people and they have become good friends I have grown both in mind and in spirit, they have touched me and I them Also there is one who has come into my life and made it complete Shown me that yes I am some one, gave me the courage to become me Pointed out that my life was not bad, helped me see through all the doubts All that has happened has lead me to this point and if I changed it would it be the same So when you feel that you wish you could change something Think long and hard, for that one little change could end up being the biggest And some of the things you have in your life now might not be In fact you might end up with a life that is worse not better WONDER IF IT IS WORTH IT? THINK NOT

I Need to Wake Up by Melissa Etheridge Have I been sleeping? I've been so still Afraid of crumbling Have I been careless? Dismissing all the distant rumblings Take me where I am supposed to be To comprehend the things that I can't see 'Cause I need to move I need to wake up I need to change I need to shake up I need to speak out Something's got to break up I've been asleep And I need to wake up now And as a child I danced like it was 1999 My dreams were wild The promise of this new world Would be mine Now I am throwing off the carelessness of youth To listen to an inconvenient truth That I need to move I need to wake up I need to change I need to shake up I need to speak out Something's got to break up I've been asleep And I need to wake up now I am not an island I am not alone I am my intentions Trapped here in this flesh and bone And I need to move I need to wake up I need to change I need to shake up I need to speak out Something's got to break up I've been asleep And I need to wake up now I want to change I need to shake up I need to speak out Or, something's got to break up I've been asleep And I need to wake up now This ia a new song by Melissa Etheridge She wrote it for the movie An Inconvenient Truth Which depicts what we as humans The havoc and potential destruction we have caused Through our careless and thoughtless ways And if we do not wake up what will be there In the future for us, our children , their children But as I listened to this song for the first time I heard more than that message For it is not just just a wake up call for the environment But for all things in our lives and in the world we live in To take notice see what is right and wrong To see what we can do to make things better What can we leave to future generations It just might be something in your life you see Things that happen to you that you built walls To be safe but in doing so cut yourself off From friends, family, the world what ever Thinking what does it matter for what can I give Not taking the time to see you and what is in you For each person touches another and leaves a mark And what you have experienced and learned you can pass on Sharing your knowledge, helping others, giving a part of you That can make a difference in some ones life Or maybe you see the injustice and discrimination around you But turned a blind eye to it, not seeing nor wanting to see Then one day it smacks you in the face and you then wake up Thinking why did I not see this before Why?...... For it did not affect you…….Why should you care? So you let it go, doing nothing, saying nothing Never thinking that one day it will be you that experiences it Whether through you, your child, a family member or a friend Then you see …….. Then you mad…….Then you act A little too late isn’t it? Wonder what it be like if acted before? You might say what can one person do I am not in a position of power, nor rich Hey not even famous; so who would listen to me But through out history an idea started with a single voice Someone saying enough is enough Time for a change, and acted upon their belief Rosa Parks is one her refusal to give up her seat In a way lead to a better life for some Susan B. Anthony one of the leaders for womens rights Who with out her we as women might have the liberties we enjoy Just two and there are more if one looks A single voice that started out small and turned into some thing big That forced changes to happen for the better I understand that not all can do what they have But each can start in their own lives For we have the responsibility to pass on to the next generation A better world, as those before have given us We as humans have see lots of injustices and discrimination It has taken time, and sacrifices to make changes Though slow we are growing and learning But sometimes we have the tendency to forget And then let things go and take a step backwards We must always move forward always thrive For a world where all can live in peace Where all are accepted for who and what they are A place where race, sex, religion and sexual preference Does not exist, all are equal……. Yes it is possible with work. Wake up see what is around you Change how you think and preceive Move and take action when and where you can Shake up those around you to get them to see Speak out when you see that which is wrong Your voice, you thoughts your ideas do matter Perhaps some day others will wake up and see And this world given to us will some day Be the paradise it was intended to be