Ok so im stuck awake, still i dont know how to feel, or if i even feel anything anymore,
i just want to crawl in a dark hole and not come out
when i reach out for help to the one person who is supposed to hold my hand and says im
more important then other things, Doesnt reach out to me how am i supposed to react
I sit here and think what do i do wrong. I know its me. It happens in all of my relationships
Maybe I ask to much?
When I ask what happened to us? and i get the same answer.
or rather the same silence,
How am I supposed to react?
You cant be in a healthy relationship if theres not an open line of communication
relationships dont grow if there isnt a way to talk threw obstacle's that appear
Maybe its what my mom says, I'm attracted to the mentally screwed up people
Starting with Mel, he had bi-polar
then Nick - skitzo.
then Zachary - PTSD. and MORE TO name.
and now Rusty. he has issues but ill be nice. and not embarrass him
I feel no love, and i want to crawl in a hole and die.
I get no sleep No help No Love Give me a bullet people. save me the hassle
and yes i went semi emo there but damn im out of ideas