resentment
i resent more than my life, my family or my friends
i resent my decisions, my path, my thoughts and my dead ends
but i brought these things upon myself....
dont respect the physical or even my health
why try anymore, cause it worked out for my father
why do i still try, like why do i even bother
is there more in store, or have i reached my zenith
did i max out on this life, just livin through my penis???
is this life really as lame as it seems
and is this my destiny or is it more than it seems???
is there more to this shit than i have started to notice
or am i like a plague, destroying shit like a locus
please...someone let me know if u do
understand this shit i've been through
but how could i expect u to know what it is
i was ready to die, but how would that look to these kids???
is this the doors?? like is it the end???
or am i just depressed and in need of a friend???
there's so many questions, i dont know all the answers
but i cant afford my bills...much less my liquor and cancers
but security's a question and i dont really feel safe
especially around myself..i contain too much self hate
so im stuck with this bad taste...in my life like rape
but its ideals that got sodomized, how much can i take???
these are just some thoughts i had to share...
wait...no shocks....dont connect that chair!!!
maybe i live my life, just a little illegal.....
maybe im fucked up and dont think like normal people
or..shits contagious and im givin u evil
after we talk go throw yourself on the steeple...
but i apologize and resent that fact....
wait...its just life let me take that back!!!!
