OK FRIENDS IM SORRY BUT I CANT KEEP GOING THRU THIS IF YOU HAVE A ISSUE WITH ME BEING HEAVY AND THINGS THEN IM SORRY I AM ME AND I AM REAL I HAVE A CURSE ON ME AND IM FEELING REALLY DOWN I FEEL LIKE IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE IM NOTHING BUT A LOSER AND THIS IS HOW IM FEELING I WISH LIFE WOULD JUST GIVE ME A BREAK