killing me now
haunted by these thoughts
why can't i think straight
mind polluted with these fears
will they wipe clean
wash away with the rain
or must i live with this
whispers taunting me
confusing the reality i see
telling me everything is a lie
ever questioning my existance
watching for the next dagger
who will the next enemy be
worries killing this life
i tighten the noose i have made
around this neck of mine
tighter it grip grows
assuring me this pain is real
will you help me cut this rope
let me breathe this life again
assure me of fears unfounded
and of feelings that are true
I look to the sky for words of hope
to bring me releif and find salvation
could a voice sweet as the spring rain
wash away these thoughts horrifying me
until that day i hide from myself
trying to wait out these fears
that haunt me, that are killing me now.
by john m