Hmm I swore I wrote in this earlier after I got home. Maybe I forgot to hit submit or something.
Anyways, Work was just another blah day... another day with me thinking about stuff. I was talking to my co-worker about the situation between Rich and I. I told her some things that's been happening. That I haven't been happy in a long while. She asked me if I still loved him and I told her that I didn't know anymore.
Another co-worker heard us talking and he said that I should take rich out to dinner or some place to where we can talk, again. Have a talk outside from home. I've had soooo many talks with Rich about this. It'll work for a while or whatever..but then it just starts all over.
But, I'll give it a try.....AGAIN. I'm also going to see how things go this week. Try to give him the hint of certain things I guess....like..simple things like I'll ask him if he wants to cook dinner or does should I....he hasn't cooked dinner in a while...
Okay, well he did on Wednesday...I had my long ass meeting at work, I didn't get much sleep and I had passed out for a while. He came home from nerd night around midnight and I asked if he could make dinner and he did....probably wouldn't of if I didn't ask him..but who knows....
He still slacks on his job of cleaning and other things and I'm just getting tired of it. I dunno...I just have some things up my sleeves on what I want to try doing.... if that don't work, then we're gonna have this talk again.
I just don't know anymore...I'm tired of feeling this way and I don't want to keep this relationship any more if it's not going to get fixed or whatever. Maybe it's not just him, maybe it's me as well. Both...bleh..something.
I guess we'll see what happens.
Hopefully work goes by fast tomorrow... Gonna be having a meeting tomorrow, just a short one... hour and half so that's not too bad.
Man, I need to get out more...wish I had friends to hang out with.... I guess I might see some old school friends this coming week.. Sara wants me to see her baby who is a month old now. Just someone that I semi grew up with....then Shane wants to go bowling. I haven't gone bowling in a long while. He's always wanting to hang out...another semi school friend... class clown type of dude... He's always telling me that I would look better without my piercings.
Grrahh I need to find someone to hang out with that like the same stuff as I do....I always feel so out of place whenever I hang out with sara or shane...
Okies...enough of this boring blog..i head to bed now..
