My birthday will be arriving next month. Still got a ways but it 's coming. On Feb 23rd, I will be 28 years old.
I miss being a kid where you would always look forward to your birthdays. You know, friends, presents, cake.... whatever. I would always invite over some friends and then my mom would invite her friends. Her friends would bring over Filipino dishes to go with the birthday meal. Of course my friends never liked asian or weird looking food then, so we had other food "Americans" would like.
Each year as I got older, it seems like that day just doesn't exist anymore. For the last couple years on my birthday, I've pretty much given up on it. Try to block it out. Sure, I like to be surprised and all but that rarely happens.
I know that last couple years I have gotten upset because Rich never did anything, got me anything, or my close friends back then. My parents usually remember and we go out for a birthday lunch or dinner like usual. Something we do on our family birthdays.
I remember last year on my birthday I was really upset. I got into some arguement with Richard. Each year, even on holidays, he'll say that he's sorry that he doesn't do anything, he doesn't have the money...etc etc... Last year, I just gave up on expecting anything from me. I mean, c'mon, he's my husband, you'd think he'd do at least something, right? Or is that too greedy? Whatever...I just don't care about it anymore.
I still don't know what's going on between us...just seems like the same crap over and over again...my heart just isn't in it anymore it seems like.
