Well Well Just to let you all know I am doing really ok.. I am doing what I can for this family and it is always getting in to trouble.. Just to let you all know who the hell I am talking about is my cousin Autumn she thinks she is old because he has a damn month that can run like freakin crazy.. I don't like her and yes I do fight with her all the damn time but I really can't help it.. I can't stand her at all and I don't want to be around her..
I have my damn reason lol.. But grandpa is trying his best to hang in there and I am hanging in there.. I has been two months so far after grandma's death and it is really hard.. I could not get no damn sleep because of what is going on.. I am always in bed thinking about her and loving everyday of it.. Everytime I try to go on with my life I think of her can't get her out of my head at all.. I cry in my sleep I cry at night wanting her back here on earth..
Now I know how my best friend sabby is now.. Her grandma died in March 2006 and her dad died in November 2006.. I know how she feels now.. My grandma died April 2007 and my great grandpa died June 2007.. Yeah my life is shitie but I am going have to live with it.. I have been in the house all month and all week and there is some days I do get out.. When I get paid on the first of the month it is like I have to go and go a head pay rent and and pay for my cell phone bill.. I do what I can for my family that is all I could..
I was thinking maybe it is time for me to move out and start new, because everyone had to start new, I would like to move up there with my gurlfriend sabby to get the hell away from Tennessee than again my sister said her her own words is that lets get a place of our own.. It will be your own damn rules and everything else, you don't have to worry about my aunt or any one else.. I was thinking about that seriously I was.. But I have been having secound thoughts about this and I think it is a really bad idea because grandpa begged me to stay and help him out..
I guess I do have to put up with my aunt, but to be honest I have to have my freedom every once in a while right well she needs to back off what i do in my life.. I do what I want when I want.. I don't have to give her my food stamped card for nothing or she don't need a damn cell phone in my name all she do is getting the damn bill high and it will screw my damn credit up big time.. I hate drama and I do have to put it up with my aunt and my damn cousin autumn.. I don't like them both at all but I am going have to live with it.. Well have to go talk to you all later and I will write up of what is going on ok.. have a really good day..
Virgo24
