I got a call from the Dr.'s office yesterday.. My creatinine is very high right now and I am now showing more symptoms of kidney failure. I guess the steroids didn't work. Don't really know where or what to do from here, but I'm scared. I haven't really talked about it until now. Maybe I think that if I talk about it, it will be real. I'm not ready for this ride. Just when you think everything is getting better life slaps me upside the face again. Guess it's my life and it's not gonna stop slapping me.
Sometimes I wonder if this is punishment for something that I've done. Maybe if I was a better person, I wouldn't have to be in so much pain or fear. Maybe then I could live and be happy.
