So other than the kidney failure my biggest serious problem with my Lupus is my heart. I can't control my heart rate and this prevents me from doing a lot of things. When it gets to high, I get cold, cloudy and pass out. When it gets to low I get warm and pass out. The are talking about putting me on a holter monitor to get a better picture of what's going on.
I just want to be normal again. I want to be me again. Damn it.... What the hell happened to me and why do I deserve this?
